🙅🏽♂️Ain’t a poet–don’t you know it
Just a little sprite
A little shy all day and night
💔Shattered in youth
Never fully formed, unified
Unconditional love vs love with strings
Love with strings is mere shadow😞
Love with strings felt lonely😥
Nobody really in my corner
Tried to bond with someone–anyone
Next of kin unstable, not able to handle their 💩
Growing up alone–lots
🚫None could be trusted
Allowed none to get close enough
Not close enough to know me well
Not Close enough to hurt me
💔Not close enough to love me
I’ve kept to myself gold🥇, not rust
I don’t know any other way
Prefer to be alone mostly–not share a joint
😐I do trust others to a certain point now
Who they seem to be, what they do consistently, I can trust
I do not expect them to know, 🙀surprised when they care
Lots outside my system scared / scares me
Emotional scars still sting my inners
🙈They are where you can’t see
I want to have fun, open up, glee
A little jaded, prickly pear, stubborn bear🐻
How to react to unknown others smiling? Saying “hi”
😒I ignore, make excuses
Sometimes I’m busy (or in a mood)
I am a 3-to-4-day socializer (max)
🤮Feeling forced in a 7 day, everyday, situation nation
I do want to change, I am trying, little by little
Say “hi” a little more. More honest, kind, smile🙂
Share more with those who feel like fun, friends, pixie dust✨
Another thing to learn…add it to the list
Listen speak, listen listen speak
Look in 👀eyes half the time. Talking / listening
I want to be happy
I come from the land of happy, though I lost my way…🤔
I want to again shine like the sun, warmth flow
Good thing I have: 1) grit 2) gumption 3) persistence
Goddess my 🙏🏽witness, I’ll continue to do all I can
You are my witness
Witness me, I’m a strange creature👽
Thoughty thoughts flow though, you see
I’ll keep trying, I’ll keep going
Until whatever end to this story
A lot to do. Share: 🤣laughter, tears, a little despair
I’m aware my time is limited
🥀300 years goes fast
Alas this lovely life…🥀
